Baring the Shoulder of My Soul...

I am not one to bare my soul... hell, I don't even talk to my self about feelings (that's private)! But I woke up at 4am this morning and had an epiphany; I've been dealing with my diabetes by mostly ignoring it. Not that I haven't taken my pills and shots religiously, but testing? Only when I knew someone was going to check... cheating? Often and extraordinarily! So what's motivating me now to do this? You mean besides the doctor telling me that I was going to die young if I didn't cut it out? It's hardly the first time one of those guys said that... No, it was the thought of my granddaughter going down the aisle without her Grandma there---got more than a few years before that happens and my son and daughter-in-law would kill me again, if I miss it. I've been lucky; both feet are intact, both kidneys function (mostly), the nerve pain is still bearable, and I can see out of all my eyes. I really do want to get better; problem is, I feel that it should justifiably just...well, happen. You know what I mean? But it won't. ~sigh~ I just need to quit being lazy! Since laziness motivates damn near everything I do, that's going to be tough... You've never seen a person work so hard to get to that blissful state of slug at the end of the day. But I know I can do it.

Anyway, thanks for letting me share... like I said, I don't bare my soul often, just expose the shoulder a bit. M;o)

Breakfast: 2 Egg White Omelette with 1/4 tomato, 1/4 avocado, 1/2 large mushroom, 1 tsp Parmesan, hollandaise sauce, 1 coffee w/heavy cream - 8 Carbs

Lunch: 4 oz. salmon, hollandaise sauce, 4 ounces stir fried veggies - 11 Carbs

Dinner: Rosemary Chicken Thighs (without the potatoes), Mimi's Coleslaw (recipe below): 10 Carbs

Snacks: 4 small celery sticks and 2 Laughing Cow Creamy Asiago cheese, 1 cup sugar free jello & 1 tbsp heavy cream - 7 Carbs

Calories: 1089 - Carbs: 33

TOOLS: MY FITNESS PAL - FITBIT
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Mimi's Coleslaw (Mom's Recipe)
1/2 Head of Cabbage (finely chopped)
About 4-5 scrapes from 1/2 of an onion
About 2 tbsp of mayo
Dash of heavy cream
Pinch salt & pepper
Dash paprika (Optional)

Fine chop cabbage and put in bowl. Using a tsp spoon, scrape 1/2 an onion about 4-5 times over the cabbage. Put mayo, cream, salt & pepper in a small air tight container and shake until very well blended. Pour mixture over cabbage and toss until well coated. Sprinkle paprika over the top.